in an unexpected plot twist phil does love him back and is really concerned when dan starts getting really vacant around phil. so phil is sad too because he misses the old dan and then dan has a nightmare and phil can hear him crying and fluff ensues. Roughly translated to mean ‘a reason for being’, or ‘a reason to wake up in the morning.’ Dan had always sort of liked that word. Japanese phenomics were often fun to say, rolled well off the tongue and gave the speaker a hint of childish cuteness that they didn’t have before. And though he didn’t speak fluent Japanese, hardly knew how in it to say hello, he remembered that word always because he’d always loved it, and because it’d always made him think of the same person each time he heard it. Phil looked out his window and then back to the browser, still wearing his black tuxedo. Today was the 20th anniversary of the day he and Dan both chose to stop everything: Youtube, the live streams, the radio show. They both knew at the time it was getting to the point where they needed to move on with what’s left of their lives. Neither of them regretted anything they did. They cherished their lives and their fans. Phil wouldn’t change it for the world, and he was 110% sure that Dan wouldn’t either. Phil looked at the camera equipment in the corner of his room. It was packed in an old cardboard box, untouched for many years. #Gay rape porn stories tumblr professional#.
